cold as stone

it's a rude awakening when you're used to being cold to everything until one day, you wake up and everything he did to you slams into you like a train; allowing yourself to sprial into an emotional depression. i haven't been this big of a trainwreck since he left the first time, 3 years ago. i will never accept this pain. love is a bitch that i want no part in. i want to be held forever in his arms.

fuck me over more baby

i hate you. i hate everything about you. you haunt me daily. i can't escape you anywhere i turn. you inhabit each part of my mind. your presence lies in my bed. you've fucked me over so good, i cant find a fucking escape. i've been put through three years of hell while you disappear with other girls, my name being the last thing to enter your mind. how is it posisble that i can't survive without thinking about you for one day and i dont even matter to you. we're over, its done. but if you ever came back id stand here waiting. i cant move one. i dont want anyone else but you. no one will ever replace you. you've fucked up my mind. i keep waiting for you to turn around and say im the one you want to but we both know that will never happen. fuck you for destroying me. fuck you for making my life a miserable hell. i dont know how much longer i can go on feeling like a worthles piece of shit. thanks asshole.