cold as stone

it's a rude awakening when you're used to being cold to everything until one day, you wake up and everything he did to you slams into you like a train; allowing yourself to sprial into an emotional depression. i haven't been this big of a trainwreck since he left the first time, 3 years ago. i will never accept this pain. love is a bitch that i want no part in. i want to be held forever in his arms.